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A Brush With Death (Example Reading)
At the beginning of the year I did a reading for myself using the Bolognese tarot to have a look at my 2025. I am 99% sure I took a picture of it, but unfortunately can’t find it. One of the predictions was that an older female member of the family would probably need an operation around the middle of the year. There was no death in the cards (that I could see), but I remember that particular column looking a bit difficult. I assumed the cards were possibly talking about my mother. But I was wrong.
Last month my mother-in-law came to visit. She spent a week with us, although I couldn’t enjoy her company very much due to being in and out of a clinic in the past eight weeks (my bipolar depression flared up big time this summer).
At the end of our week together, she put off going back home for a day due to feeling sick, and on the following day hubby drove her home personally. Then she went completely off radar, to the point that we were all worried she might have had some serious health issue. We called the paramedics on her after she sent a somewhat incoherent message (we thought she might have had a stroke or something similar).
She was rushed to the hospital, and we all braced for the worst. As there was a real possibility of her dying, I asked if she would survive, and how the situation would evolve. To be fair, my question was a bit confused: I don’t know exactly what I asked, only that my concern was her survival.
My mother-in-law is my husband’s (seventh house) mother (tenth house), so she should be represented by the radical fourth house and its ruler, Saturn. How is Saturn’s condition? Dreadful! It is in Aries, and therefore in fall, retrograde and tucked into the radical sixth house of illness. As I was concerned about her survival, I looked at the eighth house of death. Both the radical and the derived eighth house are in play, represented by Venus (radical) and the Sun (derived, radical eleventh).
Venus makes no aspect to Saturn in her current sign. The Sun is separating from a trine with reception from Saturn: there was a brush with death, but that was as close as they will come to each other in a while.
The Moon applies to a sextile of exalted Jupiter with reception. Things will improve. Saturn is about to come out of its fall by retrograding into Pisces, so while the situation remains difficult, she will survive.
It turned out she hadn’t had a stroke, but there was a serious bacterial infection in her bloodstream that caused her to have an alarmingly high fever (hence the confused message). She was treated with antibiotics. A couple of days later I asked a more relaxed: how will the matter evolve?
This time she Is represented by Venus as lady of the fourth house. Venus is peregrine in the sixth house of sickness, but she is about to change sign, whereupon she will enter her triplicity and decan: not out of the woods, but better. Once again there is no contact with death (once again the lord of the derived eighth house, Mars, separates from her planet).
But upon changing sign, Venus will bump into a difficult square with a very nasty Saturn. The situation will improve, but there is still something very unpleasant in her near future, though I could not tell what it was at the time.
Turns out that the infection, though cured in her blood, had reached her heart, and she needed an operation to change a valve, as well as additional antibiotics. The operation went fortunately really well and she is already improving a lot. I will edit the post if something changes.
MQS
Gold Under The Sky
Despite my distinct dislike of Summer, it has its beauty, too
A Parasite
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From the Microcosmicon, 39:
They crawled under his skin, blindly squirming and squelching. He wheezed in agony. How had they gotten in? How had he become their host?
Then he felt the large scar on his wrist. That’s how!
Longing for liberation, he dug his nails into his arm, pulling strings of living matter out of it.
A blade of light. The nurse calmed him, pointing at the blood and tissue he’d scratched out of his body. No parasite.
A week passed.
He felt them, blindly squirming and squelching. How had they gotten in? Then he felt the scar on his wrist. That’s how!
MQS
Tarot Encyclopedia – The Ten of Cups
(Note: this is a collection of the meanings attributed to the cards by some occultists in the past centuries. It does not reflect my own study or opinion of the cards. It is only meant as a quick comparative reference as I develop my own take.)
Paul Foster Case (and Ann Davies)
The time period is the third decanate of Pisces, from March 11 to March 20, under the sub-rulership of Mars in its Scorpio aspect.
The meanings are unfortunate unless the divination refers to spiritual
matters; for the combined forces of Mars, Jupiter and Neptune in Pisces on the physical levels, while they mean tremendous power of desire and sometimes the satisfaction of desire, point rather to unbalanced force than otherwise,
Well-Dignified: if relating to spiritual matters, permanent and lasting success through inspiration from higher levels of consciousness; high psychic development; realization of the highest aspirations; happiness. On questions at a lower level, even if well dignified: great ambition; ultra sensitiveness; great power of realizing desires, but equally great danger of misusing that power.
lll-Dignified: in spiritual questions, danger from psychism; probability of being injured mentally through unwise attempts at meditation. On all other questions: danger of self-undoing from psychism; prodigality; possibility of being influenced by others through the desire-nature; tendency to drug habits and drunkenness; disgust resulting from overindulgence; excess in pleasure.
Keyword: Excess .
(From The Oracle of Tarot course)
A. E. Waite
Appearance of Cups in a rainbow; it is contemplated in wonder and ecstacy by a man and woman below, evidently husband and wife. His right arm is about her; his left is raised upward; she raises her right arm. The two children dancing near them have not observed the prodigy but are happy after their own manner. There is a home-scene beyond. Divinatory Meanings: Contentment, repose of the entire heart; the perfection of that state; also perfection of human love and friendship; if with several picture-cards, a person who is taking charge of the Querent’s interests; also the town, village or country inhabited by the Querent. Reversed: Repose of the false heart, indignation, violence.
(From The Pictorial Key to the Tarot)
Aleister Crowley
The Ten of Cups is called Satiety. Its attribution is Mars in Pisces. The watery sign has sunk into a stagnant dream, but in it broods and breeds the violent quality of Mars, to putrefy it. As it is written: “Until a dart strike through his liver.” The pursuit of pleasure has been crowned with perfect success; and constantly it is discovered that, having got everything that one wanted, one did not want it after all; now one must pay.
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This card represents a conflicting element. On the one hand, it receives the influence of the Ten, Malkah the Virgin. The arrangement of the cups is that of the Tree of Life. But, on the other hand, they are themselves unstable. They are tilted; they spill the water from the great Lotus which overhangs the whole system from one into the other.
The work proper to water is complete: and disturbance is due. This comes from the influence of Mars in Pisces. Mars is the gross, violent and disruptive force which inevitably attacks every supposed perfection. His energy displays the greatest possible contrast with that of Pisces, which is both peaceful and spiritualized.
(From The Book of Thoth)
Golden Dawn’s Book T
HAND, as usual, holding bunch of water-lilies or lotuses, whose flowers pour a white water into all the cups, which “all run over.” The uppermost cup is held sideways by a hand, and pours water into the left-hand upper cup. A single lotus flower surmounts the top cup, and is the source of the water that fills it. Above and below the symbols Mars and Pisces.
Permanent and lasting success and happiness, because inspired from above. Not so sensual as “Lord of Material Happiness,” yet almost more truly happy.
Pleasure, dissipation, debauchery, quietness, peacemaking. Kindness, pity, generosity, wantonness, waste, etc., according to dignity.
Malkuth of HB:H (Matter settled: complete good fortune).
Herein the Great Angels HB:a’aShLYH and HB:MYHAL rule.
Etteilla
The city
Upright. In terms of spiritual medicine, this card, in its natural position, signifies: City, City Center, Homeland, Country, Town, Village, Place, Site, Dwelling, Home, Residence. – Citizen, Group of citizens, City dweller.
Reversed. Anger, Indignation, Agitation, Irritation, Outburst of rage, Wrath, Violence.
MQS
Vera Sibilla Cards That Indicate Ambiguity
There is a number of cards in the Vera Sibilla that can indicate ambiguity and unreliability. As usual, context is key, but the following ones are the most common.
Four of Hearts Reversed – Love
As I discussed in my recent video about the Fours, traditionally the Four of Hearts is the card of homosexuality. And it can still mean that in particular situations, but more broadly, aside from the other main meaning of ‘lack of love’, it can also indicate an unhealthy approach to love (hence the XIX century association with homosexuality). An unhealthy approach to love can also involve secret perversions or cheating, so the Love card reversed can be an indicator of unreliability in love.
Five of Hearts Reversed – Happiness
Being a card that represents more than one person, being in the suit of Hearts and being reversed, the Happiness card can indicate betrayal. However, traditionally, this more commonly refers to relatives (since the upright card can stand for relatives in a neutral sense). It can show disharmony among relatives, and relatives you must guard against, especially with people cards next to it.
Seven of Hearts Reversed – The Scholar
Upright, the Scholar is a symbol of the positive use of the intellect in a creative or constructive way. Reversed, the card can symbolize nonsensical or useless abstraction from reality, impotence (in all senses) but also the negative use of the intellect. Hence, the card can indicate ulterior motives and a sneaky disposition of character.
Eight of Hearts Upright/Reversed – Hope
The Hope card has many spiritual and moral virtues, among them that of choosing the high road and doing what’s good. When the card is next to cards of ambiguity, or when reversed, it can stand for someone who is extremely fickle and even promiscuous in love.
Nine of Hearts Reversed – Faithfulness
Upright, the dog symbolizes fidelity, friendship, sincerity in the affections. Reversed it can, quite literally, indicate unfaithfulness. It is also the proverbial dog biting the hand that feeds it, showing ungratefulness, anarchy, rebellion.
Ten of Hearts Reversed – Perseverance
Upright, the Ten of Hearts can indicate a stable, reliable character. Like the dog card, it reversed this symbolism when reversed, showing situations that are not stable, but also people who are unreliable.
Two of Clubs Reversed – The Peacock
When upright, the card emanates the positive energy of the peacock symbolism, showing beauty, marvel, art, beauty, completion, immortality. Reversed, it takes on its more sinister characteristics: vanity, being full of oneself, being blinded by one’s ego, which can all of course make us unreliable.
Ten of Clubs – Levity
The butterfly symbol speaks for itself. It shows someone who is fickle, not thorough, changeable, too easygoing or carefree. Still, the unreliability indicated by this card, unless supported by cards of dubious moral character, can also be of the innocent kind, due to superficiality rather than to some grand secret plan.
Four of Diamonds – Falsehood
The cat card is obviously the opposite of the dog: it indicates everything that isn’t as it seems, and so is the card of lies and cover-ups. But don’t go crying foul too easily: this is also the card of everything that is wrong, and so it also covers such things as mistakes and oversights. Still, it is never good when coming up next to a significator.
Six of Diamonds Reversed – Thought
Somewhat similarly to the Scholar, the Thought card is connected with what goes on between one’s ears. When it is reversed, the card indicates negative thoughts, which must be understood broadly to signify negative thinking or the thought of doing something negative. As such, if a significator comes up with the Thought card reversed after it, look at the other cards to see if they are feeling down, are deluded or a plotting something.
Seven of Diamonds Upright/Reversed – The Child
The Child card is neutral and has many positive undertones, but it is also card of immaturity. If it comes up upright with cards that highlight this side of its symbolism, or even worse if it comes up reversed, then you may be dealing with people who are not mature enough to be trusted, in whatever sense that might be meaningful in the context.
Eight of Diamonds Reversed – The Handmaid
Upright, the Handmaid is a card of morality and education. But when it is reversed, it becomes a card of the shallow trashy character that you should not take seriously. It can stand for someone who will betray your confidence.
Ten of Diamonds – The Thief
Obviously, the Thief is the card of betrayal par excellence. It always shows something that sneaks into a situation to ruin it from the inside. A person card with the Thief card next to it should make you think twice about trusting them.
Six of Spades Reversed – Sighs
The Sighs card is complex in its meanings, especially when reversed. Its broadest meaning is that of “no sighs”, so it can be good. But this can also signify that someone is not losing any sleep over the evil they are concocting, and so it can be a symptom of an unscrupulous character. This submeaning of the card usually emerges when other cards of similar signification are next to it.
Nine of Spades Reversed – The Prison
As with the Sighs card, the Prison reversed can be positive, as it shows freedom, being unchained or unburdened, repentance, and similar concepts. But with cards of dubious moral character it can indicate that someone is unhinged, lacking restraint and giving into unscrupulous ambitions.
Ten of Spades Upright/Reversed – The Soldier
The Soldier is the card of the night, and of everything that happens at night, including shady dealings. Because of this, especially when reversed, it can sound the alarm on the fact that something is going on behind your back. A person card next to the Soldier reversed is rarely someone you can trust.
People Cards
The general rule is that a person card reversed is either suffering or is against the querent. Especially the Heart court cards must be treated with caution, as they can become traitors and cheaters. It goes without saying that the two Enemy cards already have this potential indication baked into their upright meaning.
A Warning
You may have noticed that a lot of cards in the Sibilla can indicate unreliability. Follow these indications strictly and you’ll go around accusing everyone and their mother of being a cheater and a fraud. Interpretation is never a matter of a single card: it is important to see if cards of similar import accumulate, how the court cards relate to them and if there aren’t more likely explanations.
MQS
The Cards Won’t Tell You What’s Right
Morality is a complex thing, though this fact is lost in an age in which debates are reduced to exchanges of snarky remarks on social media. Morality is complex because it deals not in what is but in what ought to be, and what ought to be is invisible to the eyes. How ideas about what ought to be came to exist has kept philosophers and scientists occupied for thousands of years.
And this may account for a good deal of the blind desperation with which people seek something or someone who will tell them how to act. For those of a speculative mindset, reaching definitive conclusions is less a priority than exploring possibilities.
But most people feel the urgent need of external guidance. So some give themselves over to group leaders, others adhere rigidly to an ideology or religion. And those with a more woo woo view of life turn to oracles.
But divination is not a good judge of what’s morally right. If you want proof, when was the last time you laid out a spread that gave you advice that was based on moral principles completely incompatible with your own?
Having the stamp of approval of whatever projection we may make onto pretty bits of cardboards is not that good of an idea. It is a surefire way to delude ourselves and it can rob us of our agency and of our responsibility to think for ourselves.
Divination is good at telling us what is, or was, or has a good chance of being in the future. What ought to be is for us to make up our mind about.
MQS
Shelter From The Rain
April, the month I was born is, is quite like me: mercurial and moody. But this June is giving April a run for its money, and this little fella was seeking shelter from the rain under our roof.
I love bees and bumblebees almost as much as I’m terrified by wasps and hornets. Look how chonky and squeeshy he is.
MQS
Push and Pull (Example Reading)
There are couples who stay together a lifetime, couples who break up at the first sign of hardship, and then couples that seem to follow some kind of fated path made of pushing and pulling. This is one example.
8♥️ 6♣️ 7♣️ 4♠️
Q♣️ J♦️ K♣️
9♣️ 3♣️
6♥️
Note the absolude predominance of Clubs. Clubs are a heavy suit that causes difficulties and slowness. There is no card of great love, but the Eight of Hearts is a card of fun and good times.
Followed by two problematic Club cards, the Six and the Seven, which end up in break-up (Four of Spades) it is clear that the two didn’t break up from one day to the other never to see each other again, but have been on a constant path of ups and downs ending up in separation.
At the time of the reading the two were broken up, so when I told the (female) querent what I was seeing she confirmed that they’ve been on again off again for quite some time.
Look the second line! We have the two significators united by the messenger card (Jack of Diamonds). So the two have broken up but are still in contact. The querent told me it’s not so much that they send each other messages as they communicate and cause misunderstandings with one another through mutual friends (the Jack of Diamonds can show a go-between). Clearly not a very healthy situation!
The final cards, the Three of Clubs and Six of Hearts, show a reconciliation in the union, but the Nine of Clubs before them implies this is going to be a long-term goal rather than a matter of days or weeks. So the unsatisfactory situation is likely to persist for a while.
As far as giving the querent some advice based on this spread is concerned, I would personally be wary of that Jack of Diamonds between them. It is much better to clear up misunderstandings directly instead of playing up the drama by involving friends as if the two were still high-schoolers (they are in their 40s).
All in all, this spread gives off bad vibes for a relationship. It seems the two are attached more to the drama than to each other. To each their own.
MQS
On Managing Attention
You know the old adage that people who sell solutions need the problem to remain unsolved. I’m not talking about odd conspiratorial crap, like “the government is hiding the secret of immortality”. I’m talking about observable facts.
When influencers started becoming a thing, it was simply a bunch of kids in their rooms talking about stuff they were passionate about. Corporations then smelled the opportunity and ruined everything, as they usually do, by turning them into advertisers.
There is, obviously, absolutely nothing wrong in wanting to make money on the Internet. My mom, who was a journalist, used to say to people criticizing that she made money off of reporting tragedies, that it’s possible to do her job well with professionalism and strong ethics. A look at the Internet today shows me that most people are not my mom.
Whenever you end up in a rabbit hole on a particular topic on social media or youtube, your feed is going to fill to the brim with people trying to part you from your money. Even if they don’t want to part you from your money, they still want to part you from your attention, and your attention is one of the most precious things you have, so you should administer it well.
I’ve already talked about the pros I experienced from reducing Internet consumption, learning again to stay with myself. I’m not some kind of Luddite or Amish. I don’t dislike technical progress. I just think it should serve me rather than the other way around.
I generally try to spend less than an hour a day on the Internet (which, for a Millennial, is quite the achievement) not counting the time I spend working on the blog or yt channel. I’ve found that most days I can safely stay under 30 minutes.
What I’ve noticed in my journey toward reclaiming my own attention is that it is especially easy to spot someone trying to sell you something on the Internet. Again, I’m not saying it is wrong to sell goods and services, and in a way all is fair in love and marketing, but the point is that my aim of keeping my attention to myself and deploying it only for worthwhile pursuits is at odds with most people’s need to make a couple of bucks off of me.
You can immediately spot a youtuber (and probably tiktoker) who is out to get your attention and/or money because they have a distinctive (and very effective) way of serializing even the most minute unit of crappy information they are going to give you. For instance, if you watch a video about fitness, you’ll be swamped with videos all telling you how you are missing out on every possible secret hack.
You will always notice that their way of pushing out ‘content’ is to make it seem as though that video is always going to be exactly the one thing you need in whatever niche you’re exploring, and without which you will utterly fail or be lied to by invisible entities who won’t tell you the truth about it.
That is, until the next video, which will drop 24 hours later, and which will also be exactly the one thing you need and are missing and are being lied to by others and without which you’ll fail. Once you start spotting these trends it becomes almost amusing to see how much sludge can be manufactured with so little actual material.
MQS
